10 things

6:18PM

• I'm grateful for hibiscus flowers.
  
• I'm grateful for make-up to make me look better for photos
  
• I'm grateful to have a friend who has studied photography and is willing to do pictures
  
• I'm grateful for how cute Tovar says "spitacio nuts"
  
• I'm grateful to have neurogirl around :)
  

3:54PM

• I'm grateful for my google sweatshirt that Patri gave me.
  
• I'm grateful that I thought to check for schools for T in time.
  
• I'm grateful that P did the research to find a good one.
  
• I'm grateful that I have some new coaching clients
  
• I'm grateful that I was able to help a friend in a small way
  
• I'm grateful for being able to call my pets cute names
  
• I'm grateful to be home.
  
• I'm grateful for the housekeepers
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar was able to reframe the thing he'd done before that I'd complained about.
  
• I'm grateful for wisdom about children.
  
• I'm grateful for the excitement of not knowing the outcome of our trip to India
  
• I'm grateful that Patri is handling the flight information
  
• I'm grateful that Patri is coming with me
  
• I'm grateful that Patri got to have a good weekend while I was away.
  
• I'm grateful that there's a decent sounding charter school 3 miles from where we live
  
• I'm grateful for Risperdal
  
• I'm grateful for Lamictal
  
• I'm grateful that I don't have to have the side effects that I would have if I were on Lithium
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar's room is painted green.
  
• I'm grateful that I got to come home to visit with our two roommates the other night.
  
• I'm grateful for that beautiful runner rug that I see whenever I walk through the closet
  
• I'm grateful for the me sized door that I walk through
  
• I'm grateful for the automatic light sensor
  
• I'm grateful for the fancy remote light in my room
  
• I'm grateful for the cute pajama pants that Patri likes to wear
  
• I'm grateful for Lara bars
  
• I'm grateful for Thanksgiving as a day to remind people to give thanks
  

2:47PM

1. I'm grateful that my problems aren't urgent
2. I'm grateful that I have so much support
3. I'm grateful that I am happily married
4. I'm grateful that Patri loves me so much
5. I'm grateful to be married to someone whose presence I enjoy so much
6. I'm happy for two friends who have great relationships
7. I'm grateful for flirting
8. I'm grateful for the teacher being able to calm Tovar down
9. I'm grateful for the webcam on my computer
10. I'm grateful that Patri started a blog that I'm interested in
11. I'm grateful for upbeat music
12. I'm grateful for playfulness
13. I'm grateful for the sony reader
14. I'm grateful that I decided to be spendy and get the great light for the reader
15. I'm grateful that Patri helps me solve my technical problems
16. I'm grateful that he does so much self work
17. I'm grateful that I have energy again
18. I'm grateful that Where the Wild Things Are was made
19. I'm grateful for my bed rest chair
20. I'm grateful for how nice my reading nook is with it
21. I'm grateful that I'm able to be on a cocktail of meds that helps me feel normal
22. I'm grateful that the science exists for the above

5:38PM

I'm so so so grateful that Patri and I took the time to go over and finish our visa applications last night. And that the test was just someone misinterpreting it, a false alarm. Its a huge weight off, especially since I'm so tired today.

7:09PM

I'm grateful for the chandelier in my room. With all of its beauty and silliness. I'm really grateful that I went that extra step and replaced the baubles with crystals. And I love the white crown molding and the medallion. And the deep blue ceiling. I love to lay there on my bed staring at it. I can look at the light while its on, because I experimented with different light bulbs and found some that cut down the glare so that it doesn't hurt so much to look at them. I'm grateful that people have put in the energy and inventiveness to design these bulbs.

4:54PM

I'm grateful for my memory foam mattress. Its flat squareness is somehow especially beautiful after having slept on a more poofy pillow top for years. I toss and turn less on it. It looks especially beautiful with the deep blue sheets. I like the sensation of sinking into the foam.

I'm grateful for my IUD. Its soooo nice not to have to worry about taking a pill. Or the hormones that come with the pill. Or getting pregnant. It makes life so natural that I usually forget that I used to have to deal with all that. But when I stop and remember I have immense gratitude. It allows my body to have its natural rhythms without worry.

4:29PM

• I <3 my golden hallway :)
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar is getting so much easier to handle.
  
• I'm grateful that the yoga center was so generous with allowing me to use the money I've paid for credit toward a different class, even though I cancelled only a day before!
  
• I'm grateful for the same from the Improv class
  
• I'm grateful that people are so willing to make allowances for time.
  
• I'm grateful for the insight I've gotten into how emergencies happen and there really are excuses (premature babies and the like)
  
• I'm grateful to have not one, but *two* brilliant, hot, tall, foreigners in the house who are into Seasteading ;)
  
• I'm grateful that number & letter metal punch sets are cheap!
  
• I'm grateful for Patri helping me to remember that so many things I might worry about are *not my problem.*
  
• I'm grateful for the great insight I've been getting into my own ignorance lately.
  

3:47PM

• I'm grateful to be privileged.
  
• I'm grateful to have gotten this IUD I love before they stopped giving them out! (they're not using them anymore because they can cause scarring which makes it harder to get pregnant, but I'm in the privileged position of not having to worry about that :)
  
• I'm grateful that I'm getting lessons about other people's cultures
  
• I'm grateful that I can carry both little and big dynamics in my head at the same time.
  
• I'm grateful to Litch for forwarding me that link.
  

4:35PM

• I'm very grateful to have a non-hormonal IUD and to not have to worry about pregnancy or the effects of hormones
  
• I'm very grateful that I never have to be pregnant again
  
• I'm grateful that the women in my social circle love Tovar
  
• I'm grateful that Patri happened to have this Macbook Air laying around when I dropped my computer
  
• I'm grateful that I can go to a Sofia workshop next weekend!
  
• I'm grateful that I now notice and embrace being grateful through the natural course of the day
  
• I'm grateful that the chinchilla is now letting Tovar interact with her (thanks to raisins ;)
  
• I'm grateful for Patri
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar didn't pee all night when we put underwear on him
  
• I'm grateful for the Effective Influence training I've had
  
• I'm grateful to be able to interact honestly
  
• I'm grateful for how pretty the beads look
  
• I'm grateful for the existence of dedicated kids hair cut and dentistry establishments
  
• I'm grateful for the popularity of yoga
  
• I'm grateful that I'm getting better at yoga
  
• I'm grateful for having been exposed to a means for helping my body be more flexible and the effect that has on my physical presence.
  

2:42PM

I've been noticing so many things I'm grateful about lately. I think this list has really seeped into my subconscious, yay!

• I'm grateful for my exercise ball chair, and to Lara for telling me about them originally!
  
• I'm grateful for my beautiful beautiful chandelier!
  
• I'm grateful that the hallway came out just as gorgeous as I'd imagined it!
  
• I'm grateful that the new bedroom came out so beautifully!
  
• I'm grateful that its a perfect place for the paper towel holder ;)
  
• I'm grateful that our microwave has a toaster oven!
  
• I'm grateful that I got to go visit redaly in England!
  
• I'm grateful for the awesome shirts I got there!
  
• I'm thankful that I put in the extra effort to be happy with how my room is laid out.
  
• I'm grateful that the grocery store carried happy face birthday balloons that were perfect for Patri's birthday :)
  
• I'm grateful that the community has created a gym!!
  
• I'm grateful that Justine lives down the street and has been hanging out with me! :)
  
• I'm grateful that Sophia is moving to Berkeley!
  
• I'm grateful for how beautifully my lamp and bed frame match, despite my attempts to break them up ;)
  
• I'm grateful that I'm getting noticeably fit!
  
• I'm grateful that 24hr fitness offers classes with a good yoga instructor!
  
• I'm grateful that I seem to have found a good compromise with Tovar to spend more time with him while still maintaining my freedom.
  
  

4:09PM

1. pure cocoa powder -- I like it, its very healthy and low calorie
2. shaved legs
3. walking up and down stairs, with no pain, and building up the muscles to do so, so I'm not so shaky.
4. the gold hallway!!!
5. the carpet arrived much sooner than expected, Brady thinks his guy should be able to work on it on Tuesday!
6. Visiting with April :)
7. the cool jingly belly dancing hip scarf
8. That belly dancing symbols are referred to as "zills." zill - what a cool word!
9. P!nk
10. being able to reclaim the old freezer from the lounge which we'd initially used for storing breast milk: we're losing the 2nd fridge from the 2nd kitchen, so its nice that we don't have to downsize our frozen food storage space :)
11. Tovar's cough completely going away with cough medicine!
12. the fun aspect of being hypomanic
13. having Patri to keep me on course with meds even when its easy to be in denial when hypomanic
14. having Patri's companionship, support and help with keeping on my alternate day calorie restriction diet.
15. putting on muscle!
16. Its a Friday -- relaxing with almost no child watching
17. the painter asking questions until he's really clear
18. having such great hardworking caring people working on the remodel
19. Patri going to AMP

1:43AM

• I've made it through another low cal day.
  
• I got to experience an improv show
  
• I have the luxury of being able to not do much when I don't feel like I can do much
  
• I have a working hypomania emergency plan in place
  
• Patri cares about me and my health
  
• Patri helps me make choices in my life that serve me, when others would be more enjoyable in the short term
  
• I let Patri help me
  
• I'm grateful to the people who made the g1 sticker company :)
  
• I'm grateful for P!nk!
  
• I'm grateful for the amusement of washing my red tinted hair and having it turn my hands fluorescent pink :)
  
• I'm grateful for how sweet and wonderful my chinchilla is
  
• I'm grateful that I chose to stick it out and work with her until she tamed down
  
• I'm grateful that Molly and Dave are a part of the community
  
• I'm grateful that James will be moving in and Danielle will be around!
  
• I'm grateful to be at this hub of geek culture where my friends from all different places that I've lived seem to converge ;)
  

10:49PM

• I'm grateful that the person I most want to talk with is my husband.
  
• I'm grateful that people's judgment of me has little real impact on my life.
  
• I'm grateful that I was able to find something to take the edge off.
  
• I'm grateful that Lucy loves to be petted!
  
• I'm grateful that Debra pointed out to me that Lucy loves to be petted!
  
• I'm grateful for how Patri monitors the family and sees that we're on track with food and bedtime
  
• I'm grateful for the new insight from my conversation with Judith
  
• I'm grateful that Beth is going to be joining me for the next Belly Dancing class!!
  
• I'm grateful that I get to do improv!
  
• I'm grateful that Justine moved in on the street
  
• I'm grateful that I get to see Mikolaj a night or two every week
  
• I'm grateful for Brady helping us to set a timeline for the back kitchen project
  
• I'm grateful that we're going to have another bedroom!
  
• I'm grateful for ice cubes
  
• I'm grateful for my sneaky craigslist idea
  
• I'm grateful to have a competent friend to implement it!
  
• I'm grateful for my cool phone stickers!
  
• I'm grateful for the existence of cool phone stickers with matching wallpaper, go decalgirl.com!
  
• I'm grateful for our housekeepers
  
• I'm grateful to have Jeff living below
  
• I'm grateful to find my resilience when I didn't think I had any
  

7:13PM

• I'm grateful that I've finished with the chore of picking Tovar up from school and feeding him
  
• I'm grateful that Patri and I are both healing
  
• I'm grateful that I'm warm enough
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar is entertaining himself
  
• I'm grateful that I have someone to help me monitor my medications
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar liked the salad
  
• I'm grateful for a turtleneck sweater
  
• I'm grateful for having a loving relationship with my husband
  
• I'm grateful to have basic parenting skills
  
• I'm grateful to live in a home with no domestic violence
  
• I'm grateful for the space to be angry
  
• I'm grateful that all Tovar was upset about when he fell down was the loss of his sticker
  
• I'm grateful that Tovar and I have bonding time at his gym once/week
  
• I'm grateful to have to refridgerators
  
• I'm grateful for he existence of hairless cats
  
• I'm grateful for my upcoming sleep study
  
• I'm grateful for free career counseling
  
• I'm grateful for the removal of the clutter in the car port
  
• I'm grateful for Patri's idea to use twitter as a mood blog
  
• I'm grateful that my mom was here to help by going to the grocery store so that I didn't have to when my knees hurt
  
• I'm grateful for microwaves
  
• I'm grateful for frozen food
  
• I'm grateful for the existence of Whole Foods
  
• I'm grateful to have a regular grocery store literally around the corner
  
• I'm grateful to have coaching clients
  
• I'm grateful for all of the dimmer light switches we have around the house
  
• I'm grateful for the awesomeness of our contractor Brady
  

8:57PM

• I'm grateful for getting to work with an awesome coach/therapist
  
• I'm grateful for getting a sample session
  
• I'm grateful for Tovar's ever increasing capacity for reason and patience
  
• I'm grateful for the pie chart that we made at WOW
  
• I'm grateful for Patri's continued healing
  
• I'm grateful for debramcp's company
  
• I'm grateful for Patri's company
  
• I'm grateful for my clients
  
• I'm grateful that I have the privilege to value having high integrity more than money
  
• I'm grateful for the opportunity to work with people who need help with support network
  
• I'm grateful for the existence of support network
  
• I'm grateful for the existence of Maitri
  
• I'm grateful for the existence of La Familia
  
• I'm grateful for the wonderful speakers I've listened to
  
• I'm grateful for the fun Tovar and Patri are having right now
  

8:48AM

• I'm grateful for the vibrating watch that I have.
  
• I'm grateful for the song I'm listening to.
  
• I'm grateful the warmth of the sun
  
• I'm grateful for the wonders of life that Tovar experiences
  
• I'm grateful for bipolar and ADD medications
  
• I'm grateful that I can control so much of my mind
  
• I'm grateful that I have a sense of I despite these changes
  
• I'm grateful to have a sweet relationship with my husband
  
• I'm grateful that I got out of the house and took T to the discovery museum this morning
  
• I'm grateful that the Discovery Museum exists!<
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1:12AM

• I am grateful to be have had a very fun evening.
  
• I'm grateful that the fun hasn't seemed like "too much fun," I don't think I'm hypomanic
  
• I'm grateful to have gotten to spend so much time with people today
  

12:21PM

• I'm grateful that the default of my watch alarm is for 12pm instead of 12am. Tovar turned it on without my knowing :)
  
• I'm grateful that the watch interface made it as easy for me to consciously turn off the alarm setting as it was for Tovar to accidentally turn it on.
  
• I'm grateful for the cuteness of Tovar calling Liz on Patri's phone
  
• I'm grateful that the doctors are careful and are maximizing our odds of having a little girl
  
• I'm grateful for skype
  
• I'm grateful to be starting my hotline training soon
  
• I'm grateful for gcal reminders
  
• I'm grateful for yogurt
  
• I'm grateful for twitter phone apps
  
• I'm grateful for having a nanny who folds laundry
  
• I'm grateful for Tovar's school
  

6:35PM

• I am grateful that I'm not pregnant
  
• I'm grateful for the modern technology that makes it possible for me to have babies without being pregnant
  
• I'm grateful that Patri has chosen this route with me without blinking
  
• I'm grateful that the kitchen remodel won't cost nearly as much as we thought it would
  
• I'm grateful for the three player games of Dominion we have in the evenings
  
• I'm grateful for clothes that fit me
  
• I'm grateful that my hotline training will start soon
  
• I'm grateful that the volunteer director will be spending her own extra time so that I can go on the community retreat.
  
• I'm grateful that I live in an intentional community
  
• I'm grateful for phones.
  

1:29PM

• I'm grateful for Debra's wisdom about happiness
  
• I'm grateful that she'll be taking care of our pets while we're gone
  
• I'm grateful for the omni-outliner to do list maker
  
• I'm grateful for free will
  
• I'm grateful for chocolate shakes
  
• I'm grateful for Tovar's naps
  
• I'm grateful that I care about our nanny as she leaves
  
• I'm grateful that Patri supports me in giving her the bonus
  
• I'm grateful that Patri did well at poker last night
  
• I'm grateful that Patri is enjoying poker
  
• I'm grateful that he calls me and likes to talk to me
  
• I'm grateful for ear plugs
  
• I'm grateful for the improved sound proofing on my door
  
• I'm grateful to have friends moving in downstairs :)
  
• I'm grateful that we were able to get the title percentage transfer done with signatures from everyone within a day of the request